Had A Thought;

i had a thought; a thought about yu.
a thought about yu and how yu stopped caring
a thought about yu seeing me but walking past me
a thought about yu hearing me but ignoriing me
i had a thought, a thought about yu
a thought about someone hurting me
but yu not saving me
i had a thought, that someone threw a heavy glass at me
and it hit me in my face, and on my side of my stomach
glass was inside my face, and inside my stomach, i bled, and wouldnt stop, but yu ran to that person and stopped,yu looked at me and the look was as if i deserved it. AS IF ii DESERVED that heavy blow AS  I DESERVED that glass insiide of me.

so i ran, ran away from yu, and as i looked back yu did not come, i felt weary and low, sick, i slowed down and fell, i was bleeding, in the dark the redness of me was bright in the darkness. i looked for yu, i needed yu, but yu left me. yur stubborness got me. and i gave up. i gave up on me. i layed there and cried, i bled and i stopped, no one in siight i layed there. && i Had A Thought, A Thought about yu..... to be continued

Locked Up

do yu know how it feels 
to be a prisoner inside of yur own head?
to be a walking time bomb?

LOCKED UP

inside yourself with no source of escape?

SHUT DOWN

by your reality

in a fantasy world yu created off of dreams?

do yu know how it feels
to be forgotten let along rejected
PUSHED AWAY
by the ones that once loved yu

HURT BY

the ones who are close. 

last forever 

NO TEAR

can form a riiver

wiill not cause a rescue team to save yu

SCREAMING

wiill not cause an earthquake
AND
beiing the victim wiill not get yu sympathy && acceptance 
GROW,LIVE, &&  LEARN.

So Mayb...

So mayb ii can become the perfect barbie yu want me to be...

even tho yu tell me iim perfect; ii cant see iit anymore

so mayb ii can change my whole self for yu;

even tho yu say ii dont need to change

so mayb?...

So mayb ii can stop talkiing; 

so ii wont make yu so mad;

so mayb?...

Well what else can i do for yu ?

am i even enough...

i know yu say im more than enough but am i really ?

asking yu questions always leads to an argument...

so to prevent it i dont ask;

i wont ask; jus to keep yu happy all the time

So mayb ppl think i lost all my pride && my dignity

but i didnt;

So mayb yu can admit yur wrongs to me like i do

or let the little things go like i do;

Mayb yu can console me when i cry like yu used to;

mayb yu can be my baby boo yu once was;

on September 22, 2010

im not makin yu seem like yur the bad guy

because yur not;

yur far from it;

i know i have alot of issues;

yes i know i do

but when i say im srry && i will never do it again

i dont do it again

so plz; all i ask is 

yu can do the same for me

So Mayb; jus mayb we can get back on track

:( 

no matter how mad we get i jus cant help to love yu....

Tell me what iis love pt. 1

What is love?

is it the way yu hold me when im not feeling myself?

or is the way yur voice soothes me when im lonely

can yu tell me?

what is love?

is the way yu make me feel  when yu place yur fingertips between mine

what is love?

is it the sound of yur voice

or the beating of yur heart?

is it the softness of yur kiss

or the gentleness of yur touch

baby can you tell me?

Love is what God gave me

Love is what he shares with me

and he thought of me so much

that he gave me you.

and for that yu are one of my blessings.

yu make me feel wanted

and i can be ME

                                                                                                                

KYRA around yu

not jus REEZYi can be Ky the emotional one

the sensitive one

the loving one

the fun one

the angry one

the sad one

me

i can be me

and for that i am so GRATEFUL

i love yu so much baby :)

yur the only guy for me

:)

so what iis love?
The Feelings Yu Give Me

Up iin thiis DAMN class. :( GRRRRR

Man ii hate beiin iin thiis whaaaaccccckkkkk ass class yo

liike ii dont understand why we need geometry any G-Damn way

Thiis dont make no damn sense. iim liike so mad. BITCH ASS NiiGGA!!!!!!!!!!

excuse my french plz

ii dont liike coach hawkey's biitch ass yo

The Results :)

Well My Haiir iis DONE. and ii am so happy wiith the results :p

me and my haiir came a looooonnnnngggg way and iim so proud of iit. 

well heres sone piics enjoy

BEAUTiiFUL

Miicro's Are Out. :)

Last tiime ii had miicros ii had em iin for 5months

&& yes ii took good care of em

ii tokk em out and then ii jus washed my haiir and diid not put a relaxer iin

ii got miicros agaiin and ii had em iin for 4 months total

so thats a total of 9 months w/ no relaxer

[GASP]

Ok so ii took my miicros out friiday :) 

&& now ii relaxed iit and iit was a total success :)

here's some piics on the braiid out (natural haiir)

and the wash out (relaxed)

ii wiill probley post the dry wrap and after ii curl iit. so enjoy the piics. and dont talk about my natural haiir eiither LOL LOL LOL

 Natural Haiir (9 month stretch)

Wash out. (relaxed haiir) :)

so yea iim happy. ii needed a relaxer sooooo baddddd :)

Siigniing Off :)

iiKyreezy