Had A Thought;

i had a thought; a thought about yu.
a thought about yu and how yu stopped caring
a thought about yu seeing me but walking past me
a thought about yu hearing me but ignoriing me
i had a thought, a thought about yu
a thought about someone hurting me
but yu not saving me
i had a thought, that someone threw a heavy glass at me
and it hit me in my face, and on my side of my stomach
glass was inside my face, and inside my stomach, i bled, and wouldnt stop, but yu ran to that person and stopped,yu looked at me and the look was as if i deserved it. AS IF ii DESERVED that heavy blow AS  I DESERVED that glass insiide of me.

so i ran, ran away from yu, and as i looked back yu did not come, i felt weary and low, sick, i slowed down and fell, i was bleeding, in the dark the redness of me was bright in the darkness. i looked for yu, i needed yu, but yu left me. yur stubborness got me. and i gave up. i gave up on me. i layed there and cried, i bled and i stopped, no one in siight i layed there. && i Had A Thought, A Thought about yu..... to be continued

Locked Up

do yu know how it feels 
to be a prisoner inside of yur own head?
to be a walking time bomb?

LOCKED UP

inside yourself with no source of escape?

SHUT DOWN

by your reality

in a fantasy world yu created off of dreams?

do yu know how it feels
to be forgotten let along rejected
PUSHED AWAY
by the ones that once loved yu

HURT BY

the ones who are close. 

last forever 

NO TEAR

can form a riiver

wiill not cause a rescue team to save yu

SCREAMING

wiill not cause an earthquake
AND
beiing the victim wiill not get yu sympathy && acceptance 
GROW,LIVE, &&  LEARN.